Tuesday, April 15, 2008
love? or hatred..?

A power exists in this world that is to kill for.

Something that people might have all too often overseen. There are those that just do not appreciate its beauty until it is lost. There are those who never experienced it before; and then there are people like me.

It'll never be something I would ever succumb to. Or so I thought. Is it a sign of weakness to fall prey to its delicious lure? Yet, when it comes down to it, it is probably the only thing that holds our world together.

When we do see each other, it is under less than happy circumstances. I pretend to be indifferent. You act as if you don’t care. Maybe you really don’t care. I can understand that. I have made myself believe, I am nothing more than an acquaintance. Perhaps this will help me get over you.

And finally allow me to sleep at night.

Yet, I am not let off.

Even when I sleep, I do not rest. You visit me in my dreams. Taunting me. Hanging a carrot just out of my reach. They are sweet dreams, and that is why I hope they go away. They portray something that will never come true, and I am hurting because of them.

I have fallen. I am broken. You are so close; yet so far that I can only hope. I yearn for interaction. Yet, unfortunately, that is all I can, and will ever, achieve.

You have locked yourself..and I am not the key.

All I can do is watch from a distance. Never crossing paths, but always there. Even if not in body, in soul.

I am at a dilemma. I cannot proceed any further. I want to. Really I do. I want to be your something more. Alas. My childish fanciful hopes are like rocks in the ocean. Hidden. Cold. And never to be known by you.

What is the point then, in continuing to breath? I am losing sight of my reason for doing so.

A power exists in this world that is to kill for, or if not, to die for…



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