Friday, September 30, 2005
rEtrOgrAdE

I still harbour that dream...I want to live in that dream...wishing...

Wishing...beyond hope...that a miracle would happen...that it would just happen and BAM! right in my face and...either wake me up to reality or...let me live in my dreams forever...

"I am being torn asunder from the inside out!"

It reacts...

If it had a voice, it would surely shake the earth's very foundation...

Indifference.

In the meantime, focus! Focus, focus! It used to be fun, now it is not.

Now...now it is like a pest...bothersome, troublesome, frustrating, distracting.

One of my friends seems to be going through a tough period of his life right now. I wouldnt want to probe too much. I just hope everything works out for him in the end. Dun lose hope!

Hai~why is it both potentially exciting and destructive at the same time?

Why?

It finds you, then eludes you...you chase after it, it disappears for good. It takes you for a fool. It mocks at your attempts. It gains from your misery.

Anyone have a pesticide?