the last summer

thoughts

2010-12-21T11:42:00.003+08:00

I have reached a point where putting in a decent, albeit still slackerish, amount of effort into examinations is just not enough to rank up there anymore. Haha. Either that or carelessness is killing me, again.

Still, at least I am still enjoying my time in NUS =D

jap?

2010-12-06T22:38:00.002+08:00

Wow, haven't gone for a k singing session for a loooooong time, and today the group of us (Jean, Eve, Cher M. and Meng) went for 6+ hours straight! It was tiring, but fun! =D

Had a taste of singing japanese songs, although, I will need a lot more practise if I am even able to pronounce the words properly or even keep up...

On another note, Meng the shit noob went and spilt his hot chocolate (while its still hot) onto my socks and shoe. He must really hate hot chocolate. And my shoe.

So yea, was a fun session, and it'd be good to get together like this again once in a while.

Recently, I found out that the series 'Sliders' was showing on cable tv, on a channel that I am able to access! Excitement~

This was one of those series which I would religiously watch every single day that it aired (others of which included Samurai X, a little yellow sponge in the sea, and Monster Rancher, lol)while I was younger, in my secondary school days. Now that it is back, and exams are over, its back to being a tv potato again!

I had been a little sick the past few days, with a cold. It seems to be better now (considering I managed to last through the 6+ hours today), but now, it seems the rest of my family has fallen sick. My dad, mom (who just vomitted), and bro (who is asleep 3 hours before his usual bedtime). There is definitely some bug going around. Hope everyone gets over it soon..

A dream I had last night...nice ;) yet confusing.. =\

helllo

2010-12-03T00:04:00.002+08:00

It has been a very busy semester, but it is over!

My period of indifference is getting longer before the exams, which is the time where I just heck the studying and just do what I feel like doing. This may have cost me at least one of my modules this time though...

A sign of getting tired of studying for exams probably?

Holidays started~

Although, we may have to start on further research on our hopping robot project, and may have to start thinking of how to build it already.

For now, just sit back and relax~

walk

2010-06-26T14:52:00.004+08:00

As I was walking home today, I passed by a group of secondary school girls, and I heard one of them speaking out loudly to another of them,

"Your house MUST have a computer, it is only normal."
Or something along those lines.
And the way she said was that it was a bare necessity of life.

Is it really?
Many things are taken for granted. Appreciate them.

2010-05-27T00:10:00.002+08:00

My teeth feel so weird now...

hitler

2010-03-08T20:40:00.002+08:00

Wow it has been like what? 4 months since the last update?

Came across this poem a few days ago while reading up some stuff about research paper conventions. Gave me a sort of gloomy feel, one that reminded me of our morality, and to cherish the people we have around us. This poem managed to make me think of the 'what ifs' in life, and eventhough it changed my mood around from a happy mood to a somewhat depressed mood (although not much), it was in a good sort of way. I just can't explain it.

Here enjoy. =)

Funeral Blues

Stop all the clocks, cut off the telephone,
Prevent the dog from barking with a juicy bone,
Silence the pianos and with muffled drum
Bring out the coffin, let the mourners come.

Let aeroplanes circle moaning overhead
Scribbling on the sky the message He is Dead.
Put crepe bows round the white necks of the public doves,
Let the traffic policemen wear black cotton gloves.

He was my North, my South, my East and West,
My working week and my Sunday rest,
My noon, my midnight, my talk, my song;
I thought that love would last forever: I was wrong.

The stars are not wanted now; put out every one,
Pack up the moon and dismantle the sun,
Pour away the ocean and sweep up the woods;
For nothing now can ever come to any good.

W.H. Auden

One thing I learned about history subjects. Reading about history is fun, writing about history is boring as hell, relatively speaking. If you are the sort who falls asleep at the instance of any history exposure, then never, I repeat, never attempt a history module. My current history module is interesting to study, learning about popular culture in Singapore through the years. However, having to write academically about them just totally turns me off. It becomes dry. Like a desert. However, that being the basis of history modules, I guess there is no circumventing it. Sadly.

I have been getting darker (tanner) every week. Haha. Due to swimming under the afternoon sun for quite some time now. So much so that my friend could not even recognise me in the dark, as in, under the moonlight. She even thought I was Indian. -.-''

I am thinking of changing my blogskin soon. Quite sick of seeing the same aeroplane going whoosh at the top of the page already...haha. Maybe when I have too much free time on my hands will I attempt some artistic piece of stickman work.

last leg

2009-11-30T00:09:00.003+08:00

Ah..last paper in 11 hours' time! =D

Haven't been able to concentrate much on studying during the weekends. Hopefully will get by decently...

Plus the nose bleed I had today did not help things. Couldn concentrate! Luckily was only doing past year papers, so no need (much) new stuff to remember.

After tmr, it'll be party for a few days! Hehe. =D

marathon

2009-11-23T01:26:00.003+08:00

Phew. Just finished my cheat sheet on fluids...after working on it for...lets see, 8 and a half hours?

Wow, has it been THAT long... zzz.

Okay, so I took a long time. (I write slow)

Exams are stressful, especially if I impose onto myself a certain criteria to meet, results-wise.

Brain is tired!

Looking forward to the holidays!

2009-11-15T17:43:00.000+08:00

Fluids is fun, fluids is fun, fluids is fun...

15 days to freedom~

blarg

2009-10-30T01:57:00.003+08:00

What what. Vapour cycles are squeezing my brain. It is difficult to picture them, and I am tired of trying to figure them out.

Unseen CAD later in the afternoon...haha. Quite exciting, although whether I will screw it up like the first one remains to be seen.

Tired tired. Going to slp...zzz.

fumble

2009-10-24T18:27:00.005+08:00

Right, for the sake of not piling up too much dust, I shall attempt an update.

School work has been, how to put it, neither tough nor slack. Not tough in the sense that we have learnt before what they are teaching in our current modules. Not slack in the sense that eventhough, we have an idea of what is going on, effort needs to be put in otherwise...heh heh, in my case, my CAP is going to drop by at least 1.

Well, have been putting in quite a bit of effort into school work the past 2 weeks or so. Not as much as previous sem, but I guess its still adequate to keep up with the syllabus (with the exception of a certain Fluids module).

Hmm, school work has been taking up quite a lot of my time these days. Good news is, the semester is coming to an end, and I only have one more final lab report to churn out before I am done. =D

Haven't been out in quite a long while...

Btw, I got a room in PGP! Luckily. Haha. No need to travel to and fro from school everyday. Saves a hell lot of time.

Just have been thinking, I am very behind with the current pop songs. Want to listen to new songs...if anyone has a good suggestion, feel free to let me know! =)

Oh yes by the way, I finally know (more like recalled) who Hide is/was when James sent my a couple of songs from X Japan. Okay so its old news, but I only remembered evelyn and sheri talking about him once before. =\

I need to get a life.

Something seems to be missing right now. I just have that feeling that there is something else I should be doing with my life...

You know, I find it soothing at times to just watch the evening sky. It is very beautiful.

I recently got my hands on ROMs from the sega mega-drive console, or Genesis as it is better known. Playing those games I used to play when I was younger brings back so much memories. Having grown up, the difficulty of those games seem to have dropped as well. However, I still thoroughly enjoy them..

They really bring me back to the times when I could remember, I was truly happy. Childhood innocence if you can call it. As for now, like I said above, something seems to be missing.

So, right now, it is becoming dark, and the sunset view is fading. Night is setting in and I shall take my leave...

aloof

2009-07-18T23:50:00.003+08:00

An update! *claps, cheerings and fireworks going off*

So the past few weeks have been super tiring!

Work takes up practically my entire weekdays, except for the times in the evening when I can squeeze in some time to meet up with friends...tis about the only thing that breaks the monotonous lifestyle that goes something like this:

Wake up. Eat. Work. Eat. Sleep. Repeat.

Damn boring.

Well my weekends are not exactly fully 'rest' days either, since I'll probably be out also...haha. Though since its usually something fun, no complains from me there!

In between work, I helped out at the Triennial Intervarsity Games as well. This was a once every 3 years event where sportsmen from multiple overseas universities meet up to compete in sports events.

So the way this year's event was carried out sort of gave me the feeling of being slip shod. Oh well. At least everything turned out alright..

I guess its 2 more weeks of work before I stop for school..sort of counting down already..haha.

Some highlights of the past month:

1. I gained some hands-on technical knowledge.
2. I saw the view from atop the flyer.

Nothing much else I can think of eh.. -.-''

If asked how I would rate the happiness of my life at the moment, not counting the stress I get when planning for the future, as well as financial stress, I would say...very happy. =)

And someone might be out to strangle me...

chomp

2009-06-14T15:14:00.002+08:00

Okay I am feeling slightly emotional as I am writing this.

Probably it is because I just woke up from a mini nap. It is usually times like these that I am truly clear of what I am experiencing inside; all the mixed feelings that are affecting me.

Ah oh well. I never said I was sad anyway. Just emotional. Haha.

You know, I might have stressed this before last time, but I just have to say again. What goes around comes around, and things always come one full circle, only in my case, the effect is literally multiplied twice...

Though, experiencing things from different perspectives helps makes you grow right? Haha...see, positive thinking!

I am not sure if putting on a brave front is necessary all the time, although I think it might have become an integral part of me. Even as I am typing this, I am subconsciously flushing out all those feelings I was experiencing just half an hour back, and am feeling much back to my normal self...haha.

The thoughts that come to our mind everyday are comprised of mostly negative ones. (Yes, it is scientifically proven) This negativity is often contradicting what I KNOW. This is getting irritating.

Okay anyway, I'll be starting work tmr! Haha...I tell you, this is one of the worst times to start! >=(
Long story.

At least I will be free on weekends!

Hopefully my time there will be fruitful. As reluctant as I am to stop slacking, I know that this is a good learning opportunity. Furthermore it will enhance what I will be learning in the next school semester.

By the way, I have found the word that very nicely describes why I was emotional.

Loneliness.

d-day

2009-05-29T12:31:00.002+08:00

Results! Ahh...because of this, I woke up too early and couldnt get back to sleep! Despite the headache and obvious lack of sleep...zzz.

Well, on the brighter side, I managed to meet my target of 3.50! Plus I achieved my first (and only) 'A' grade...haha. =D

Phew, glad that's over...

I heard Hon Meng was saying that the highest scorer amongst us would be treating...? Hmm...I wonder...what free food I should ask for...hohoho.

Oh, and I managed to get a silver for my IPPT on tuesday as well...;)

So now it is time to exit my 'totally enjoy myself' phase of the holidays and proceed to doing something more meaningful...hmm...

front

2009-05-20T21:41:00.002+08:00

Been about 2 weeks plus since the exams ended. Wow, can it be any more boring staying at home! Haha. I wonder how I managed to do so when I was young....hmm.

Okay, so I've been told to go look for a job...;P not yet...not yet.

Going to attempt my IPPT next tuesday, thanks to someone who begged me to accompany him. Hai, how how...? Fitness dropped during exam period. Now trying hard to fit in any last minute training I can get before embarrassing myself on tuesday. Lol. We'll see how it goes then...

And...results'll be out in 9 days! =O oh my.

Only after that, that I'll start to seriously look for a job, or something meaningful, along the same lines.

Still have another 4 day course I have to attend during this period of time, though the exact dates are not confirmed yet...

So in the meantime, I am very very free. Ask me out for anything...anyone? =)

Haha...

ahaha

2009-05-05T09:27:00.003+08:00

Had the most fun during EG1108 exam yesterday! =D

By 'fun', I mean an almost complete sense of indifference to the end result, hence resulting in me attempting the paper without much stress imposed on myself (actually almost none) and ended up with me rocking on my chair in the last 15 mins trying to figure out my last blank to the paper. (I had managed to force out, IMO, 'reasonable' answers for the rest, thought not very likely to be correct.) Well, actually by that time I had already given up...I was already thinking of how to enjoy myself once it was over..haha!

Considering I had screwed up physics and maths previously, I was feeling much more relaxed for this one. Maybe its the indifference pill I took.

Same feeling as when I took my sociology paper last semester; just to have fun. Haha...

Now that the exams are over, I am feeling at a slight loss of what to do to pass my time, at least for the first few weeks...haha.

I was just exploring IVLE forums for the 'last' time; it is always nice to see what are being discussed on the forums after the exam has ended, sort of to 'relive' memories spent suffering there..haha. Analogous to walking around your old classroom for the final time before graduating; to appeal to the sense of nostalgia.

Okay, maybe I am thinking too far... =P

So this is it. The end of my first year in uni. No longer a freshman..haha. Time flies like a person high on Red Bull.

Final obstacle - 29th May, results! Also known as Dooms Day. Oh well.

The sun was shining brightly when I woke up this morning. The grass is green, the sky is blue. A good start to the holidays. =)

'Opportunity' is the key word here.

2009-05-01T22:36:00.003+08:00

Came across a very nice phrase today.

"It is good to have someone who looks at your face when you are old and still sees you as how you think you look like."

Quite sweet, when you think about it. =)

teetering

2009-04-25T17:39:00.002+08:00

My patience actually snapped on Friday. Although luckily I was still able to contain myself.

1 paper down! 4 more to go.

Strangely though, I am not very concerned about how this round of exams will turn out. Indifference is the more appropriate word.

After Monday's paper, I'll be more relaxed already. MLE is just...bad.

soon soon

2009-04-12T00:42:00.003+08:00

I swear, horror shows are just not the best genre for me. Haha.
Okay, so it perks you up, and gets you all excited and stuff, but it keeps me thinking abt it for some time after, and can still feel my heart thumping...

Initially, I had two plans on how to pass the saturday. I am glad I didnt have to ditch the first plan for the second. Enjoyed myself, much much more than expected. =)

Hmm...certain assumptions have already been made I see. Nice...

Exams! Ahaha...one more final week, before reading week already. Fast.

Kk, time to get into the mood.

mmhm

2009-04-05T02:03:00.002+08:00

Lazy to blog, lazy to blog, but nvm, a tiny update here.

Exams are just 3 weeks away. Ahaha. Wonderful. (sense the sarcasm)

I have fell back on my revision pace again in the past week. Had too many things on my mind. So now, argh, behind again~ bleargh.

Although now, my head is clearer than ever! Focus is coming back again. Hopefully I can discipline myself to get back on track. Hopefully.

Haha...I just couldn stop laughing to myself today.

Losing my sanity perhaps?

maybe

2009-03-21T11:12:00.003+08:00

Lots of tutorials and school work to catch up on. Dont want the same situation to happen like last semester, where I spent too much time trying to catch up on what I missed out during the reading week. By that time, it will be too late.

Sometimes I wonder, why I am spending so much effort on my studies. I am spending at least 3 times the effort as I ever did in my entire schooling life. To others, it might not seem like much, and yea, I tend to play from time to time (perhaps a little too much at times, lol), but as long as I know I am putting in my effort, I will be contented.

To live up to expectations? What am I doing this for? For myself, or for others? Perhaps it is both.

Almost got back all my mid term results. Ok, at least did fairly well, no major complaints there. That is the problem, however. My endurance ends at mid terms, and I will lag behind in the syllabus. It has happened again.

Phew! It is difficult to maintain a constant pace, I will admit that. Haha.

My dad was lecturing my brother the other day, since he was planning to get married soon. Certain things he said, stuck with me. Deep down inside, I already knew it, but he just further enforced it. You need to make sure your future is secured.

Maybe, just maybe, that is where a good foundation in education comes in. I may be wrong, but just...maybe.

help my toes

2009-03-08T21:20:00.000+08:00

Gah! Feeling a mixture of negative feelings right now. Depression, loneliness, helplessness.

Why? I really don't know. Hai. Just feeling so...not happy.

Yesterday I was crossing the road at the junction near my house. Let's just say if I had merrily crossed and assumed cars would definitely stop when the green man came on, I would have ended up in hospital. Bitch-ass driver never slowed down. Nearly ran over my toes too. Lucky SOB that my glasses were blurry. Only saw SGH something and missed the rest.

Sometimes I wonder, how would things change if my multiple close shaves with disaster actually did come true?

Scary thoughts. Better not to think about them. They would start to seem welcoming.

ps. I don't try to sound emo all the time. It is because I am feeling this way at whichever point in time that I blog about it. To release any strong emotions that may overwhelm me. To prevent, even IMO, chilling thoughts from forming. To breath.

barrier

2009-02-28T00:00:00.002+08:00

I swear, I am trying 10 different passwords just to access my blogger account...memory is becoming real bad.

Its the calm before the storm. MLE test is later today. 35% is no joke. Screw this up, and I screw myself up.

Perhaps I should clarify some issues soon. Keeping things to yourself would eventually take its toll on you, as it has on me.

Oh and one interesting piece of news. I might not have enough points to stay on in hall in the next semester year. Wow, and I am in the hall orientation committee for next semester year. Joy. I wonder how things will turn out.

I always let myself become emo at times, and its the simple things that snap me back to my usual self. This is not the way to go. Reliving those feelings are just...not worth it.

To witness things you do not want to; to force a smile when you are hurting inside; the best of us find love in misery.

So my rants are over. I feel slightly more cheerful now, or as cheerful as I can get revising MLE.

its time to tell

2009-02-10T23:55:00.003+08:00

What is blue and smells like red paint?

What is brown and sounds like a bell?

How do you fit 5 bulbasaurs and 2 charizards onto a bus?

Haha, just a few lameass jokes. =P

CNY came and gone, in the blink of an eye...did not even feel as CNY-ish as when I was younger =(

March 13 - Resident Evil 5's release date. Cant wait! =O

We're into week 5 of our semester, and before we know it, mid terms will be here. That's fast. Still catch no ball with MLE1101. ZzZ. Die.

They say, you'll never know until you try. Simple, yet provocative statement. Prodding me onwards.

wist..

2009-01-25T00:31:00.002+08:00

Crud, I am having a dilemma now.
Hopefully the path will become clearer as the day progresses on..haha.

Strange..I initially had a lot of things I wanted to write here, but now, they seem redundant, in relation to what I am thinking of right now.

Ah..in any case, the new lunar year is approaching! Only good things will happen from hereon...haha.
(Optimism works!)

As they say, what will be, will be, eh? =)

Almost time to collect ang paos and eat bak kwa. =D

hi

2009-01-18T00:36:00.001+08:00

I am getting that feeling again...haha.

I think this semester is going to be quite interesting. =)

the early bird catches the worm

2009-01-07T23:23:00.004+08:00

Been trying to sleep earlier and wake up earlier recently.

Next target: slp b4 1.30 am, wake up b4 10am.

Haha. Not bad already, considering I have been slping at around 4am and waking up past noon for the past weeks.

Finished watching Prison Break season 2, so nothing much to keep me awake anyway.

Been catching up on some running the past week or so. At least now I can complete my route without stopping, as opposed to when I first ran again after so long, though I think I will just lose my stamina again when the time comes to mug like shit again.

Going back on to hall on Saturday to do a bit of Spring cleaning...'home sweet home'. =)

re-reflections

2009-01-02T01:15:00.000+08:00

Finally managed to sign into my blogger account. Somehow the last time I tried, I couldnt, no matter how hard I tried. Haha...

So its the start of the new year! Happy New Year everyone!

Played tong xiao mahjong last night. As usual, as long as I play with money, I'll end up losin, which was exactly what happened. No need to elaborate on that...

Well, one good news during this holidays, at least I exceeded my expected grade for semester 1. =)

Highlights of the past year;
From my ORD date on December 2007:
- I managed to keep this promise I made to myself; which is just something I told myself not to do as long as I am in NS.
- Though as a result of this promise, my actions might have given the wrong signals, and hence, missed out on something else.
- This is still bothering me.

Working experience in Pico Creative Centre; January - July 2008:
- Learnt how to survive boredom, or more specifically, monotony, like the best of them.
- Became fairly adept at using Microsoft Excel.
- First ever 'real' working experience.
- Saved some money; spent most of them on T400. =(

NUS semester 1:
August - October 2008:
- Loved first 2 weeks of school; very relaxed.
- Started feeling the pressure after tutorials started; pace was lightning compared to JC.
- Joined Rendezvous '08; spent minimally 4 hours every weeknight practicing for the performance; got complained of by roommate for leaving him alone. (aww...)

November 2008:
- Final weeks leading up to exams.
- Did not understand the syllabus starting from the point Rendezvous '08 ended. Caught no ball. Lol.
- Spent a substantial amount of time to catch up.
- Chiong'ed as best as I could for exams. Still died in a few areas.
- Realised I did not properly go out at all during my entire semester 1.
- Most importantly, a stranger moved into my room.

So there you have it. A v v brief outline of my year.
Hmm, I actually had quite a lot I wanted to type out, but now I forgot most of it, so let's just leave is as it is now..haha.

Today is my 1 year anniversary! =D
My braces...and me.

Anyway, I just borrowed Prison Break season 2 from the 'fat one'. You know who I am referring to...haha. At least something to keep me occupied for a few more days.

I started typing this post 2 hours ago. How do I do it? =O

where we gonna be when we turn 25?

2008-12-14T01:00:00.003+08:00

Wasted a whole week rotting at home. Haha. Oh well, at least I am recovered now (besides the constant coughing).

Just when I started feeling like my holidays are getting monotonous, my friend suggested something that immediately intrigued me...like, why not? Go for it! Haha. Trying something new this coming January.

Distractions...yes. I finally understood. The first three quarters of the year had been filled with distractions. I was carefree, or so I thought. When the distractions wore off, I realised, I was still trapped. In the absence of desire, or want, I was happy, alone in my own little world. However, when I started reconnecting, that is when, my comfort zone vanished, and I was thrown back into the real world.

Humans are sociable creatures. I am human.

Good thing about a blog is, you can rant all you want. Nobody gives a damn (or at least I hope). Its just an outlet to vent out all your frustrations, thoughts, indignities etc. Just about anything you can think of - as long as its not politically incorrect, or course. Elitism, anyone? =P

So, therefore, whether or not people understood what I just wrote is immaterial. Haha. What matters is, I feel better after letting it all out, albeit abtractly (is there such a word? Hmm...).

Watched a documentary on dogs just now. Wow. They are 1 smart species. I hope to get a (another) dog one day. =)

On another note, went to attend my friend's wedding last Sunday. Sadly, havent gotten the pictures from him...though I doubt I would actually get it from him in the end. Haha. Only have one here. This is the group of us who survived being in 165 Squadron in the year of 2006-2007. Groom is not there though...

ouch

2008-12-05T23:48:00.002+08:00

Just finished a very tiring day -

Slept at 4 am this morning (I wonder why, YK); woke up and ran ard campus with B in the late morning; packed up and said goodbye to my dorm in NUS, all the while lugging a serious heavy load of stuff; rushed back home and out to Somerset again for an outing with my Hall OG.

Ok, at least I quite enjoyed certain parts of the outing just now, though a third of the time I was in a daze..haha.

Now, super tired and sleepy, such that when I reached my room, I accidentally kicked the chair with my toe and my toenail broke into two. Now there's a long bloody crack along my toenail.

I should really get some sleep. *grumbles*

ironic IRONY!

2008-11-29T21:53:00.000+08:00

Oh guys, I have something interesting here...

What does 'jfgi' mean?

For those who do not know, go and google it and find out.

The irony will KILL you!

Hahahaha...

On to other things. 1 last paper to go! I'm through trying to expect too much out of my grades. What will be, will be la, as I always say.
No point feeling so sad/happy over how I did at this point in time right?
Plus, it doesnt help when you have YK as your roommate. Zzzzz~~ haha.

Anyway I will find out on the 23rd of December...D-day~

How time flies. Jason, one of my friends, is getting married the coming Sunday! On the same date as the day I ended my dreaded National Service, exactly one year after.

Wow. It just dawned onto me, we are all old! Haha...as in, really. Yea, I know my profile on the right still puts me as twenty, but that's besides the point...(I am no longer twenty by the way...but hey, no one will know if no one says anything)
I guess I will be expecting more wedding invitations in the near future. ^^'

Ok, back to mugging...Have fun ppl!

jitters?

2008-11-17T03:00:00.006+08:00

Phew. It has been a while...but I guess, with the constant workload and cramming of topics, one does lose the mood to actually blog about the happenings in his/her life...

Furthermore, exams are just around the corner. 5 days more to be exact.

Let's see...what notable happenings were there...?

Yea, there was my birthday on the 10th of November. Celebrated with friends and family at my house on the 8th as, well, 10th was a Monday (school day!). If I hadnt said it out properly, here I say it again, albeit up to 9 days late =P.

Thanks to everyone who made it there on that day! Your presence is very much appreciated! =)

Thanks also to my OG back in hall...and everyone who had a part in that waterbomb session...lol. You guys really gave me a memorable 'colourful' celebration. Haha.
Well I guess the only consolation from that was that CEO Crystal was not kept dry either... >=)
Also, to each and everyone of you who has, in one way or another, shared a little piece of their kind thoughts, many many thanks! Really.

Argh, its 3am, and I just finished revising what I had planned for today (yesterday actually). Feeling so very restless...hai~
Though did you know, 3am is still considered early for 'hallies' like me...haha. I am actually still thinking of what else I can do now, rather than going to bed. Hmmm. -.^

Just a 'random-why' thought. Perhaps it is time for me to change my blogskin? I, and I am also sure most people out there, am getting bored of looking at this same skin of the plane flying ard like a housefly.
Just a thought.

Jiayou to everyone who is mugging for exams!
(This does not apply to those who do not have, or have finished their exams! Shoo! Go away!)

Maybe I will blog again just to tell the world how jittery I am feeling before the exams; to express onto the world, my utmost euphoria for being part of an exam system that will determine the rest of my life. How exciting. Lol.
Then again, maybe I might not.

Oh btw, here are a few pics from my hall concert. Just to add a little colour to this post.

Death scene -

One of our dances -

Before -

After -

Jack (my first character) is never smiling -

RENDEZVOUS - end

2008-10-19T13:05:00.000+08:00

After a grueling 9 weeks of non-stop training, concert has finally come to a close.

Though both days were totally different experiences with two very distinct crowds, we did our best, and only they can decide if what they have seen, was worth the time and money they spent to come down.

...and I believe so. =)

Mixed feelings, I suppose...happy yet, sad; relieved, yet nostalgic.

The best concert by RH in at least the past 5 years.
As said by our hall master.

You cannot imagine how fantastic that felt.

I am glad that we managed to go out with such a bang.

The entire scene; the feelings it invoked; the people around me - they have been immortalised in my mind.

3, 2, 1...CAST!

No...CONCERT! All the way~

concert'08

2008-09-15T02:20:00.002+08:00

Hey world!

Introducing the much awaited, much anticipated original production of the year...I give you, by Raffles Hall NUS, our very own concert musical, RENDEZVOUS! Is murder ever justified?

Date: 17th & 18th October 2008 (Friday & Saturday)
Venue: University Cultural Centre; National University Of Singapore
Time: 1930 - 2230 (with intermission)
Ticket Pricing:
$16 for 17th October
$18 for 18th October

For more details, visit the concert website here!

Interested parties can also contact me if you are keen on getting tickets.

Do come down and support! I guarantee you will not regret it! =D

On to more personal stuff, I have been very busy recently, what with the ever constant need to study and the ongoing vibrancy of a hectic hall life. Haha. More specifically, I am involved in this year's hall concert as one of the cast. =)

So really, do come down and support! Thanks!

humble beginnings

2008-08-25T01:40:00.001+08:00

Hey guys! After a relatively long period of absence, I am back! Haha.

Its week 3 of the semester; start of tutorials, start of the dreaded condition called 'mugger-philiac-phobia'; gotta love mugging, gotta hate mugging. =) I start feeling as if I am alrdy behind in my studies, though we only just started. Kiasu'ism rearing its ugly head again? Perhaps.

Its better to be safe than sorry. Better to start seriously now than to regret it later when my lack of a stitch in time did not save my nine. Haha. I love playing around with those words..lols.

In other words, studies first. Everything else, okay maybe not EVERYTHING, but most other trivialities, second. This is a promise I am making now, to myself, and I plan on honouring this resolution with a stoic determination.

Come to think of it, with all my commitments, especially the one to my hall concert, a great fraction of my time would already be directed to non-academic pursuits, making the time I do have left, precious and few. All the more adding importance to time management and more specifically, just plain academic preparation i.e. mugger zombie.

My laptop has finally arrived, after what seemed like an eternity. Ask any of my other friends who got this laptop too; they'll vouch for Einstein's Theory of Relativity, and show that I am not exaggerating when I said eternity!

I have to admit besides the obvious convenience of the laptop; i.e. working from anywhere, there are the other undesirables that come along with this. For one, Iam typing out this post when I should be sleeping right now. Without a doubt, the laptop does pose a distraction. I mean, who wouldnt be guiled by the sweet lure of the laptop's uses; msn, gaming, internet surfing etc. If left unchecked, I might be whittling my time away playing games instead of constructively expanding my reservoir of knowledge.

Which boils down to a very important tenet of university life; self-discipline. I really have to plan my time and actions accordingly. Obviously, I do not want to spend my whole time in uni mugging, yet I did come here to get a degree. A certain minimal amount of effort must be set. That will start later today. No more fooling around, seriously.

Failure is the stepping stone to success; to succeed, we need to put in effort, in order to fail. ^.^

fast pace

2008-08-01T00:45:00.000+08:00

Ordered a new laptop.

Lenovo ThinkPad T400 something. Haha. I will be getting it latest by 11 Aug. Like, finally!

Went to watch Money Not Enough 2 today.
Okay la, not as good as I had expected.
In fact, towards the end, my fatigue was starting to overcome me, and I was actually falling slightly asleep towards the end...
There's a touching part though, and that, at least, saved the movie from being one of the more boring ones I have watched this year...haha.

Well okay, from now onwards I will be very busy in uni.
We will all be a lot busier now on. It'll be harder to meet up alrdy.
Try to look on the bright side of things yea?

Phew, I am tired out!
Been to hall camp the past few days.
Okay, actually I was glad I didnt skip the whole thing (only those events where you'll get wet...haha).
Nice people there. =)

Oh mann, and I just found out for the engineering O week, there's still a problem with the guy/girl ratio. =(
Whyyy??
Haha. =P

Currently I am looking forward to joining two particular CCAs. Pool, of more specifically, cue sports, and the Electronic Music Club. I think that club is quite cool.
Compose your own music, jam, all those kind of stuff. Looking forward to it. =)

...and the study-free days keep counting down. In about 10 days, I will be having proper lessons alrdy. No more non-stop playing!! =(
Every day is going to end super late. That is not inclusive or various CCA and hall activities I will be involved in. Luckily I have a dorm there. At least I have a place to study, chill, rest etc.

Going back to campus later this morning. Haha. To think, I used to dread thinking of that place as a 2nd home, but now, after recently being ard in campus quite often, I already look to it as another home. Now all that remains is to add a more homely touch to the dorm...haha. YK, I'll add more 'act cute' stuff, just because you like complaining about them so much =)

how..

2008-07-28T00:48:00.002+08:00

I agree with what my roomie said.

There are tons of administration to do before sch sem starts. Have to figure out so many stuff; CORS, planning of schedule, modules to take etc. Its giving me a headache.

I am stressed even before I start sch. How sad is that. Haha.

sardine PACKED

2008-07-24T23:46:00.001+08:00

Okay, had to change blogskin.
Apparently I was stealing bandwidth from the previous creator of the skin; since I was too lazy to save and host the background pictures myself. Haha. My fault!
So now this new skin, I cant really see wad colour the background is; my monitor is on the verge of dying, meaning there are some colours that my monitor cannot display, so I'm like seeing all green. Haha.
Doesnt matter la, if it looks girly. Haha. Perhaps in this way, I can convince ppl I am a girl? Lols.

Oh, I realised I have been seeing you at least once a day for the past 4 days? That's like, a lot. Haha.
You must appreciate having an NUS student's answers to refer to! =D

Went to help out for RAG at NUS today.
Okay, so I said I'd be there at 10.
Can you blame me for being 2 hrs late? Haha. There was a traffic jam. =P
What exciting activity awaited me there?
Peeling apart egg cartons. -.-''
Nvm, every little bit for RAG helps! Haha.
The dance for the Rag day looks fun. =)
I would love to be a part of it...haha, but I think too late alrdy.
I wonder how the float would look like when its done? Hmm...

Next week onwards, my schedule will be packed..and I seriously mean it. Packed until almost no time to do anything else other than stuff involving NUS.
Too many things coming up. Hai~

moovie

2008-07-21T23:34:00.004+08:00

Watched two 2 and a half hour shows in two straight days in a row.

"Batman - The Dark Knight"
Very well made, I feel.
It has a tense atmosphere throughout the entire show; keeps you at the edge of your seat all the way.
Some might find it quite disturbing.
Has quite a sad ending too.
Definitely worth the time and money.
One of the better shows this year.

"Red Cliff"
I think fans of 三国 stories will like it.
They actually managed to inject humour into battle scenes. Thumbs up. Lol.
It has more of a light-hearted feel to the movie, as opposed to normal war shows, where the grimness of death and destruction rises above all.
A little boring at certain parts though.
Otherwise overall, its still an okay show to watch.

I bought 2 packets of chocolate. I went home with one, though I didnt open any at all. =(
Gonna meet up with ppl I haven met in a while this coming few days.
Hmm.. I think if I really have nothing to do on thursday, I'll really pop by NUS to help in rag! LOL. That's pathetic la. Well, at least get to know more people? Haha, who am I kidding. -.-

Raffles Hall Orientation Camp. Engineering O week.
Totally clash with each other.
Furthermore the hall orientation has a COMPULSORY payment of wad, 160 bux?
Total crap.

when white turns to grey

2008-07-18T23:55:00.001+08:00

I am tired, and half asleep, and if I dun understand, I dont care.

Last day of work over! =D
Two weeks to enjoy before being a slave to studies again. Haha.
Well, not exactly two weeks. I *might* have to go back to help out with an on-site project for a few days.
Might as well play as much as I can while I am still free. Haha.
Since I am also not tied down by anything also.

Great deal! Get all the benefits of the real thing, without the liabilities! =D

Lol. Dont you just hate it when ppl twist the words of something to make it sound more, favorable, to themselves?
Haha. When all else fails, heck care. =)
My gosh, my focus had been diverted.
I am falling behind with what's going on around me.
With what is important.
Suddenly I remembered what I told myself right from the beginning.
It has given me the approval I sought. =)
And now, I am not so bothered anymore.

Starting on a new training programme from next Monday.
Oh today before I left, my colleague was saying I looked darker, hence, er, look healthier?
Haha I dont really see the link, but that's wad she said.
Hmm... -.^

right or left

2008-07-13T23:46:00.002+08:00

Usually the hardest 'right' choices hurt the most, but they also grant the most satisfaction and relief at the end.
Haven known I had chosen to tread the 'right' path, is reward enough.
That ends this chapter of my life.
Act 3 starts soon.

M & M's

2008-07-12T23:20:00.000+08:00

Ok so Im back from Union Camp, darker than ever. Lol.
The first 2 days suked. Luckily the next 2 days were much better, otherwise I'd have been wasting my 55 bux. Haha.
Made new friends.
Kent Ridge Hall is a very nice place to stay...if only I had managed to get it. =(
Oh well.
Anyway, I shant go into the details of what happened in the camp. Too lengthy. Haha. Played games, moved around the east side of Singapore playing 'Amazing Race', did cheers, got wet, got burnt in the sun, got to know a secret pal blah blah. The usual. =)

Thanks to Shuen for your card, and puzzle and er, what was the last thing...oh ya, the meal yesterday. How was monkey brains for lunch? HAha. =)
The card was quite touching, though, I din cry as you said I would. But nvm, I'll still tell you I cried. Lol. Thanks again.
The puzzle is the cutest thing in the world. [Get what I am trying to say here? Haha.]
So anyway, thanks many. Your kind thoughts are appreciated.

I got called up for reservist in-camp training in January next year. -.-
2 weeks; 1 week uni holidays, the 2nd week sch started again alrdy.
So I want to go also cannot, have to try to defer.
Haha. SHit.

3...2...1...ouch.

2008-07-06T14:30:00.002+08:00

Phew phew. Really tiring week!
Haha. Physically, but more of mentally.

I shall now proceed to bore you with my insignificant ramblings. =)

Went out with colleagues on friday night. Apparently as a dinner for all those who are going to leave the company soon. Dinner at Billy Bomber's, followed by a period of uncertainty before deciding to go K at partyworld Orhard. Had supper at HongKong Cafe Cineleisure; and after that just plain chatted the night away. (Blah blah blah...)

Its interesting to know some stuff about them you'd never have otherwise known on a normal day. =)

Well, obviously we were super tired by the time we could take the first train back. I think the 4 of us who were taking train back were dam stupid. Lol. (oh he's still going on...?)

Firstly, we waited (slept) at the platform at Somerset MRT for 11 mins to take the Jurong East train to City Hall. We boarded it when it came.
Am I the only one thinking that there is something wrong with this?
Go figure. Haha. (*yawns*...)

Next, "Dont worry, I will be able to wake up at Serangoon and then wake u all up so that u all can go back...ya so you all can go slp." she said.

Next thing we heard, "Buangkok Station. Please mind the gap." Lol.

Crossed the platform again. By the time I made it home it was alrdy 7 15 am. My dad was just about to go for work. Haha. (Someone make this guy stop!)

Went to city area to look for something in the afternoon, though unfortunately couldn find what I was looking for. =(
Wasted trip. Hai~

Finally got my external hard drive back! =D
Like...........FINALLY. Haha.
At least my PSP is more than a brick right now. (No offense to anyone who lost his/her psp =P)

LAte for guitar lesson. But what's new. Haha.

Rushed back to get ready for my dad's dunno what rotary step up ceremony. Reached home, and had to leave almost immediately again. (I am not paying attention to his story anymore.)

Boring dinner. Boring speeches. What more can I say. I wouldn have gone if it wasnt so impt for my dad. Haha. (yea, and boring, just like you)

That about sums up stuff. Haha. (...!! Finally. Lol.)

Btw, this is just an extra post that I typed cos I was just feeling too sian.
I was supposed to meet my frens 2 hours ago.
I have not finished packing.
I am vexed, in more ways than one.

commiseration? =(

2008-07-02T23:55:00.000+08:00

A movie is taking place.
I am just an actor in it.
Who's filming?
Haha.

Went to Changi Airport today? Haha, couldnt believe I actually went there.
Im repeating myself again when I say, I always thought Changi Airport the other areas besides the departure halls would look more...scenic. Its just walls everywhere. Lol.

Everyone was tired. Somebody was especially tired.

All I could do was just look on and smile a resigned smile.

Yes, I believe the 'terrible truth'.
Even if its only me believing it.
I dont know what to do now.

Anyway, I am going to end work soon. =)
Ole. Lol.

Btw, this is not an emo post. Haha.

psyche

2008-07-01T19:45:00.000+08:00

A wave of melancholy came swept over me this afternoon, silently, suddenly, and intensely, almost bringing me over the edge. Lol. Though I managed to nip it in the bud in the end.
I was talking to my colleague about something, and he got to the point where he said something very enlightening.
Something about me and a heck-care attitude walking hand in hand...lol...
Whether its a compliment or an insult, it doesnt really matter.
I had a realisation.
He was right. Since when did I start ever letting something like that affect me so much?
It will not take control of me. I will not be a slave to that emotion.
I will not break that past promise to myself. That incident will not repeat itself.

Just this afternoon, I was tired to the point of exhaustion.
Now, I am re-energised. =D

The power of the mind is so strong its scary.

Oh btw, I am actually in the office at the moment. =)

choice

2008-06-27T22:17:00.005+08:00

If I made this choice which I feel is the best one, but as a result, it turns out I am not coping with it as well as I had thought I would, does it mean I have just seriously screwed myself?

I have just seriously screwed myself.

zohan

2008-06-23T00:13:00.002+08:00

Saturday was a super boring day. Practically rotted at home for almost the whole day, until I felt too lethargic and decided to go walk walk ard Heartland Mall.
Went for a clothes shopping session ; for the 2nd time in 8 days. Haha. Spend spend spend. =.=''
Couldnt help it. The sale was too irresistable. At least I have more variety now. Lol. Spent $50+ in that short hr. Haha.

Had a Daikin fun bowling competition in the morning. Havent played in like, wad, half a year? Lols. Ok la. Still managed to get a 150+ pinfalls average. =)
Though somebody was wishing I wont win anything, my family team still made it first. Haha. Won some attractive prizes. Haha. Ntuc vouchers ($900 worth =D), cordless phone...among others. =)

Yea, well due to that shopping spree, my wallet was like, filled with air. Haha. Wanted to go buy movie tickets in the afternoon when I realised I only had 11 dollars in my wallet. How to buy 4 tickets...? =.=
Went all around the place looking for a bloody OCBC atm to no avail. Can you believe it? NONE in the whole place. Wad nonsense. Luckily YK made it there a bit earlier as well. So he paid for it first. Only to realise he forgot to use SAFRA card, and we re-queued again just to save that extra 8 dollars. =)

"You Don't Mess With The Zohan"
NC16.
Though not all of us were above 16 (I wonder who).
Lol. Its a funny show la. What can I say? Sick humour, but humour nonetheless. =D
Worth the watch if you have nothing to do at home.

Yea and thanks for lending me money during dinner. Haha. That's how pathetic the amount I had in my wallet left.

Alright. Sch term is starting again. Good luck to everyone involved.
Starting work again...haha. NOt that I am complaining. I need to earn back what I spent shopping. Lol. =)
Back to the boring everyday regime again.
Though only temporary, before I am off for camp again. Haha.

ec08

2008-06-20T22:18:00.003+08:00

Alright. Back from Engin Camp 08! Haha.
Kena cooked under the sun for 3 straight days in a row. Now dam dark. Lols.
Might update more about it when I have the pictures...then again I might not. =P
I miss them a little bit alrdy, but then this is always the case when you leave right?
All good things come to an end.

Next up, Union Camp 08; 7-11 July 08. =D

number 1

2008-06-15T23:04:00.003+08:00

Engine camp 2008.

5D / 4N

I should just enjoy myself as much as possible there...hopefully I wont regret making this choice to go..haha.

See you all in 5 days! =)

upwards

2008-06-12T23:35:00.001+08:00

So after a few days, I think I shld be back to normal. Even if not, I am feeling a LOT better than Monday at least. :0

A big thank you to Shuen for that postcard. You're always nice even though I say you're not. Haha. Ok.
Anyway, I appreciate it. Thank you.

In case you are wondering, I think that was supposed to be me on that postcard...couldnt really tell. Anyway, its a nice drawing!
So anyone who thinks otherwise, keep your nasty comments to yourself. Haha. Positive feedback are welcomed. =)

Started playing Viwawa just yesterday. My character is still naked. Lol. Who cares?
Played games online like daidi and mahjong.
Still, nothing beats playing the real thing. It loads too slow on the comp... =(

OK, now to decide what to get for Fathers' Day...

act 2 - end

2008-06-08T23:22:00.000+08:00

I think I have said this before. How you feel about something depends a lot in your perspective. Really.
Haven been in the best of mood these few days. Nothing is making me truly enjoy myself. I can smile at one moment, and...lets just say not smiling the next.
Heck. I need a few days to get my perspective right about certain things, and I will be back. I promise.
In the meantime, I'd just have to play along with the presumptious norms of societal interactions, however unappeasing I may find it.

Happy birthday to CYK for turning 21 today. Dun anyhow go and gao luan now ya hear?! =)

Went to get my hair cut today, or rather trimmed. Haha. My parents were nagging away that my hair was still equally long. -.- That was the point. Lol. It was getting too thick.

Anw...Getting bruises all over my arms. Zzz. Basket.

Many events are coming up. Camps are starting, work is ending, and before I know it, I am gonna be a student again.

discovery

2008-06-02T23:35:00.004+08:00

James and I have once again, through ingenuity, solved an important life lesson.
This is the record of our conversation.
You can find a summarised version in James' Blog. Haha...
As requested, a name was removed from this conversation to protect his/her interests (or lack of them =)).

Part 1 -

James : pigs need farmers
Me : farms need pigs
James : farmers need farms to have pigs; pigs need farmers to have farms to have pigs
Me : therefore, pigs need themselves, to have farmers as farm pigs
James : wth LOL

Part 2 -

James: pigs and farmers, and now farm dogs. Do pigs eat dogs?
Some kid: no.pigs dont eat dogs
Me : if the dogs on farms are called farm dogs; and horses in the sea are called sea horses, why are oranges called oranges and apples not called red?
Some kid : wth, use your brain
James : then why are seashells called seashells when they're on the beach instead of the sea?
Me : cos she sold them on the seashore?
Some kid : yeah make sense
James : if she sells seashells on the seashore, but no one saw her sell seashells on the seashore, does it mean that she didnt sell seashells on the seashore?
Me : no it meant she sold beachshells
James : if a bitch sells beachshells, shouldnt the beachshells be called bitchshells?
Me : but if a bitch sells bitchshells, she'd be a shellbitch; so she'd be selling shellbitchshells
James : but dogs do not have shells; so bitchshells is not defined
Me : but dogs have balls no? so they should be called bitchballs
James : wth lol
Me : lol!
James : but females don't have balls lol, so bitchballs not defined either
Me : tt's y they call it beachballs and not bitchballs; its a cover up
James : so children play with beachballs aka bitchballs?!?!
Me : yea! tt explains why bitches have no balls!
James : =O
Me : omg, we're onto something big here
James : we just solved a big question on the origins of gender
Me : at least for dogs

So that's it. Our Thesis. Anyone want to sponsor our findings? =)

murmur

2008-06-01T23:00:00.001+08:00

Went to Raffles City to pay the $50 fee for the engine camp. Zzz. -.- Went all the way there to ONLY pay the $50. None of the tshirt sizes enquiries or food preferences or 'important' forms as stated in their email. Waste of time. I went to voice my unhappiness on their camp blog. LOL. ;P

Anyway, Andrew was 'sick' again yest, so couldnt go for guitar lesson. Since I was going to be late for the lesson ANYWAY, I just skipped it. =)

I wouldn have learnt anything significant during that lesson anyway. The pace of the class is comparable to the salt-fearing snails.

Watched Rambo 4 and Rocky Balboa at home on dvd. (Stallone mania!) Rambo 4's gore was WOW. Very erm, eye-opening. Haha.

Today spent a few hours at heartland mall just lazing around (at least I was). Nthn much to do. Oh and Bossini was more lively than usual..haha. However, a dare was not honoured!! =(

Oh and there's this korean show aired on channel U on weekends 7 30pm - 9 30pm.
That male lead from Winter's Sonata is acting. What's his name? Bae Yong Joon? Is that the correct guy? Korean fans, pardon me. HAha.
Quite nice, but I totally forgot the name of this serial. -.-
Talk about STM...

courtesy?

2008-05-28T22:40:00.000+08:00

A few weeks ago, we had this gathering.

We came upon one point when this other SAJC friend was telling us about his tutee.

There was this one lesson where he went to his tutee's place. No one was home. Totally deserted. He tried calling. No response. After multiple attempts, he gave up and left. One week later, when he called again, he found out why.

His tutee left Singapore to go overseas. All the while not informing him at all.
Reason? Forgot to tell. -.-

Irresponsible tutee, plus bullshit reason.
Needless to say, he's not teaching him anymore.

Well, at that point in time, all we could think of was, he was dam suay.

Though, suayness has a knack for knocking at your door.
My door.

I shant go into the details, but just know I was nearly found in the same situation.

Assumption is a very dangerous thought to play around with, at the expense of others.

On to other less infuriating matters;

My super busy period at my office is over for the time being. =D
After working on this particular project non-stop for the past few weeks, it is finally done.
Now there is much less stress at work. Haha.
As in, currently no deadlines to meet, so its good.

Well, my life is starting to get interesting again. Haha. After the down time from January til now, it is now starting to look up again. =)

Oh, dropped by my friend's house yesterday with two other ppl for a house visit. Glad that friend is doing well. =)

Ok, I am now out of things to write.

=S

2008-05-22T23:00:00.000+08:00

Dam it.

Like talking to a freaking wall.

Your impatience, having been transferred to me, is not a good thing in this case.

Anyway I think I am getting the hang of this telemarketing thing. It gets quite interesting at times, especially when I manage to talk them into setting up appointments...haha. I feel like those door to door salesmen.. -.-

Its good to have other, er, if you can call them, 'distractions' to keep your mind from those thoughts that'd ruin your day. Otherwise I'd be letting too many little things affect my mood.

I shouldn bother so much in other human beings' business. Giving myself unnecessary trouble would be an open invitation to even more trouble.

So I should say goodbye to this phase once and for all. Good riddance.

...

2008-05-20T23:55:00.001+08:00

Looking for something to make you laugh?
Go type in 'Thais Cheer Beer' in youtube and watch their commercial.
Gauranteed to make you laugh or at least raise an eyebrow.

I was laughing like crazy just now.
Was.
The joy had been taken away.

This moment is bad now.

*deep sigh*

yang

2008-05-19T23:19:00.000+08:00

Just bought a 160 Gb external hard disk for $129. Haha. Heart pain sia forking out that amount at one go.

Thanks to Qi Yang for all the stuff you passed to me, and happy 21st! (in an hr's time)

Is it just me or have the days been very hot the past few days? I think I got sunburnt alrdy. -.-

Engine camp in a month's time. Should I go?

Anw, my fertile imagination had caused me some discomfort for the past week or so, though I am glad that indifference has returned me to my former self. =)

That I am actually not so bothered at all...just as I was supposed to be...right from the beginning.

chance

2008-05-18T00:52:00.003+08:00

Once bitten, twice not shy.
Thrice getting high.

I am a victim of circumstance, and that is why I cannot accept it; this defeat?

tele talking

2008-05-15T23:42:00.000+08:00

...and suddenly, my job description became telemarketer. lol.

Calling up those ppl overseas to try to make appointments with them for an exhibition. Truly not my cup of tea. Either I cant understand you, or you cant understand me. -.-

The only good thing was, my colleague and I could share all the funny stories we have encountered talking to them after work. Haha. Especially her old uncle one, the way she described, dam funny.

Somemore both of us were complaining that none of us could speak mandarin fluently enough to promote that exhibition to China ppl in chinese. We'd just die if we have to speak to them. Haha.

So anyway, I have been very fatigued this whole week. Lots of things to do, and when finally I thought tmr could take a load off, I get pang seh'ed. Bs. Dam disappointing. So now I am thinking if I shld indeed go back to work for the remaining half of tmr. Dam no life.

How how? Somebody introduce something fun and interesting for me to do!! ~.~

where

2008-05-14T23:05:00.001+08:00

10 weeks till my next dental appointment. That's bs.
My bloody orthodontist just HAD to take a whole month of leave. Crap shit.

Seriously today, in the game of pool, I was put in my place. I was playing 9 ball with the counter guy, who obviously played competitively. Kena thrash, left right and centre. 7 balls left? He'd clear it in an instant. Its like watching them play on tv, and it was beautiful la. Learned a few new things. Haha. Yea, he is THAT good, and he was using a house cue...

Zzz. I think I injured my back again, in between my shoulder blades. Since last saturday morning, it'd been bothering me. Its getting worse today. Dam. Maybe I'd just break it one day and become a vegetable. -.-

The days seem a little less...sms-ish? Haha. (aka boring.lol)

Anw, I think I am starting to subconsciously look at some things differently...and this subconscious act is making me really consciously rethink some things. Though that is a line I would not want to cross. At least not as of today.

it is Sunday

2008-05-11T18:15:00.001+08:00

Have you ever tried playing the PhotoY2K games in the arcades? The ones where u have to spot the differences between you given pictures in a set amount of time?

Haha my friend and I, for lack of better things to do, went and tried them out on fri night. Not bad la. Couldn beat the high score (obviously), but we at least could hold our own. =)
That is, until the they started playing around with shadows and it became impossibly crazy to spot the differences -.-

Sat morning. Woke up early early (8am is considered early for me) due to some unknown reason of not being able to sleep...

Wasted my time leaving house so early. For once, I was ON TIME. Though someone else was not. Zzz. Yea its you, the honey stars kid. -.-''

Met birthday boy soon after. Guitar lesson was omg-odly boring. What I spent less than 5 mins to play at home, the teacher managed to spend an entire HOUR on it. I couldn believe it. Am I paying $15 a lesson for this..???

Went to celebrate Andrew's birthday at Marina Square K Box in the evening.
Eating, singing, talking crap. Haha. The usual.
He's lucky la. None of us actually bothered to smear a slice of cake onto his face XD
He got off easy this time...haha.

SAS kids. =)

The group of us, being the smartasses we are, decided to take a cab back instead of the MRT, due to it being 'faster'. Well as fate would have it, there were hardly any taxis available for boarding, even at the esplanade taxi stand there, and it was reaching midnight soon...

After much deliberation (aka talking crap), we decided to take a bus back...haha. Well, there were no direct buses there to my place at all. Sian.

The plus point was, we bus-ed to dot's house and borrowed his car (or bro's or dad's Im not sure) and I had a first time experience driving an auto car back to my place. Nice la. I'd be too lazy to drive a manual anymore once I get used to an auto XD.

Oh, and Andrew is worse than shit at giving directions back to his place.

Anyway today I just had too much free time on my hands. Created a facebook account (eventually), and changed a blogskin. I think something simple should suffice yea?

So anyway, Happy Mother's Day to everyone concerned! Haha.

nil

2008-05-08T22:12:00.001+08:00

I managed to hold back the urge to shoot my mouth off, at least in terms of sms'ing, on impulse. Otherwise, my piercing words could have added at least 2 more ppl to my enemies list.

So my day today was exactly how I had planned it this morning. Work, and go home in time for dinner. As straightforward as could be. I was still contemplating where to go after work, but I think my options were quite limited.

During the course of my workday I had to deal with a worse-than-shit database that caused me to not to be able to meet a deadline. Piece of crap.

And this is the story of my life.

Tmr will be a day slightly more interesting than today...but not by much.

heaven and hell

2008-05-07T21:08:00.001+08:00

Back from Beijing! Haha.
So after much prodding from ppl, here i am to post a little abt my trip.

I dunno why, but I just find the way the Beijing ppl talk quite nice. Haha. Though to most of you you'd probably find it irritating. They'll slang and slur their words like dunno wad. Most of their "n's" will be replaced by "r's". Or actually, they like to end their sentences with something-'r'.
E.g "hai shi zou ze bianr hui bi jiao hao ar (hai shi zou ze bian hui bi jiao hao ya)"
Haha.

Anyway, if you are the sort who are afraid to jaywalk in Singapore, I think if u go Beijing you can forget about crossing any roads alrdy.
Their red lights there like no red lights ah.
U can cross with the green man and still will have cars chionging at you and horning at you for blocking their way. =.= And they'll start scolding as well. Wonderful aint it?
Its like a new mini adventure each time we cross a street...lol.

The pollution was bad. The fog, or smog more like it, can be seen very thick just 100 metres in front of you. Not to mention it makes breathing difficult...

One thing that I must say is good in Beijing is that, the soldiers there are dam vigilant. Got once we walked the wrong place, and they shouted at us to go back the way we came like they wanted to kill us liddat. Haha. Everywhere the soldiers are very at attention. The way they patrol is unbelievable la. Non stop. There's no way anyone can get past them man.

Oh and another thing, the citizens there love to bang into you on the streets. To them , you're invisible. Haha. So tit for tat lor. There was once I ended up having to shove this old lady aside for freaking pushing me so far. Lol. Aye dun be fooled by 'old lady'. They are dam strong. I almost got knocked to the ground by a bloody old man. Wth.

I think the country has seen a lot of infrastructural development. Their central area is like orchard road. Very busy and lots of high buildings. Perhaps its because of the olympics tt's causing the vast changes.

Other than that, nothing much to say. Haha.
Shopping, shopping and more shopping. Bought lots and lots of stuff. Haha. Its nice to bargain with them. =)
If not shopping, then its sightseeing.

Imperial palace.

I forgot where is this.

See that little tower at the top?

That's the one behind them. Haha. That's how far we climbed XD

I'd probably be uploading the other pics soon. Maybe in a mth or so. Haha. I am just a lazy bum. Lol.

Im a sucker for cows la. Haha when i saw this i just had to take it!

Reminded me of Shuen. Maybe cos of the similarity. LOL.

Argh. Ok I am tired of trying to recall what happened in Beijing. So I shall stop here. Haha.

Last night I had a very scary dream.
I dreamt that I, along with another person, only had 1 more day to live, and that I was going to die. It felt so dam real. Apparently I knew I was going to die of a heart attack or something of that sorts. The people ard me knew that as well. They could not do anything and just looked at me with those sad sad eyes.

In my dream, my 2nd attack would kill me. That I was sure. When I experienced the first one inside, it felt all too real and scary. Couldn breath and stuff. When I recovered from the first one, I could feel weak. No energy to do anything. I stopped feeling much emotion. All I knew was that deep down inside, I was wishing my heart out for a way out of this end. I felt so lost. To make matters worst, the other person died right in front of my eyes before me. I never felt so helpless before.

I was just waiting to die. Literally. Ppl around me cried. It tore me apart.

So you can imagine the relief when I woke up to find that I am still fine. Haha. I just stunned there on my bed for dunno how long. Just being able to breath properly was such a good feeling.

Once again, I am reminded of my morality in this world...

I dunno, but I feel this is all too, surreal. It sends a chill down my spine =(

fare di well

2008-04-26T14:13:00.000+08:00

Phew. Finally the looong week is over...*jumps for joy*
Lol. Lame.

Hmm. Fell sick. Again. Funny thing was, today almost everybody in the side of the office where I work at is starting to cough and sneeze...haha. I think its courtesy of me?? Hahahaha.

I still feel it is so very difficult to reply sms'es in chinese la! =\

I am getting so tired of trying to please everyone, you know. Maybe I should grab this break as a chance to rethink how I will, should...WANT to behave around others.

Well I am leaving for Beijing in...9 hrs. Kinda excited since it has been quite long since I left the country. =)

Er. Thanks Shuen for your, uh, well wishes on my trip...haha. Eventhough it might sound more like ur cursing me, but thanks anyway. (This is considered one paragraph whether you like it or not!)

So, unless something terrible happens to me, I guess the world would still see more of me. (=

Anyway, see you people in 8 days!

regrets

2008-04-23T12:44:00.000+08:00

You know when you reach a certain point in your life, you'd start regretting all the little things you didnt do.

Why didnt I join the band and/or choir?
Why didnt I take the tooth that dropped out from a boy I pushed down in primary sch to sell??
Why didnt I, knowing that I'd have to go to the principal's office anyway, grabbed that irksome fat kid (by the same name) by the collar and stuffed a gerbil up his ass?
Why was I so kind and didnt eat the LAST chicken wing, allowing some other *insert insulting word here* person to eat?

You know, all those funny little things that'll suddenly pop up and make u feel quite regretful for abt a minute, until you forget them again?

Yea...for example, swimming.

I can swim with pyjamas on. I can dive and grab a key from the swimming pool floor. I can breaststroke and front crawl a few laps. I.e bronze. Lol. Big deal. Maybe should have at least continued to gold, like my bro. Haha. But i was so young, naive..and dumb. =)

Or my electone grade.
Stopped at what? Level 5? 1 grade away from teacher's grade? This period of time also no time to continue. I also find diff in finding time to practise. Zzz.

Of course, its not as though I cannot rectify these few regrets NOW. Its just that I wont be able to do it as wholeheartedly as last time...at least for now.

I managed to do something about a few of those regrets anyway...haha. Rewards from anyone?? No..? =\

Among others, braces anyone? Haha.

So my point is, its not good to live with regrets. While you still have the time and ability to do so, you can change the way your life is progressing. Living a life of regrets is like living in a pool of quicksand; either grab onto that nearby brance and lift yourself out before u sink too deep, or u can continue struggling and disappear under forever.

Another thing. I was mistaken to be 14 years old yest. FOURTEEN.
This is getting too much. Lol.
I am just glad I am looking younger everyday!

FEAR

2008-04-19T14:41:00.000+08:00

Alright people. Let me start off explaining a bit abt my previous post.

1. There is no 'other' one. There is only 'the' one (whom is still elusive until i think i'd have more chance finding a needle in the horse feed)
2. I do not want to kill myself. I only want to kill dogs.
3. I am not an emo potato. I am only, according to a dear acquaintance, 65% emo. (i think its 65%, cant rmb, but its in the 1-100% range). I think that is supposed to be good.
4. Most of the previous post is gibberish. i.e. it does not accurately represent what I am feeling now; it represents only 6427 hrs ago.
5. Although, one full paragraph in that pool of nonsense is true.
6. No dogs were actually harmed in the making of that post (so animal rights gaytivists, scuttle), although my desire to bite them does supercede the desire to pat.

That's about it.

Onto to more important stuff.
I have been doing some reading up of articles. Sort of self-improvement knowledge...its so fun to try out la...haha. I find they are quite useful; confidence-wise. Though my fren says its lame. Well, that's his opinion...haha. If being swayed by the opinion of others so easily is my forte, den I think my diet can consist of human fertilisers.
That's my opinion of those ppl who have no mind of their own except following others their whole pathetic lives.

Now, onto EVEN more important stuff.

I was queueing up buying food for my colleague, and this guy from woodbridge flew in from behind and just jumped in front of me and ordered. Lucky I didnt have a chopper in hand, or he can say goodbye to his manhood.

Okay, now I am going to start on the emo part of the post; the I-am-feeling-emo-and-want-to-write-my-innermost-feelings-yet-do-not-want-ppl-to-read-so-I-make-the-font-colour-the-same-as-the-background-and-super-small-but-I-will-post-it-anyway part. =D

Hmm...perhaps I have started on the wrong footing, and ended up tumbling downhill all the way...='(

That's it. Lol.

Oh and here is something interesting.
FEAR = False Evidence Appearing Real

In other words, most of the things we perceive to be fearful of are actually non-existent. U want proof, go read it up somewhere else. This blog is not called blogopedia. Keeping that in mind, once we can overcome this psychological fear barrier, I believe many things can be done.
That is my target.

Can you believe I actually spent 30 mins writing this crap?
My time management beats those in the Guiness Book of Nonsense Records.

love? or hatred..?

2008-04-15T08:48:00.000+08:00

A power exists in this world that is to kill for.

Something that people might have all too often overseen. There are those that just do not appreciate its beauty until it is lost. There are those who never experienced it before; and then there are people like me.

It'll never be something I would ever succumb to. Or so I thought. Is it a sign of weakness to fall prey to its delicious lure? Yet, when it comes down to it, it is probably the only thing that holds our world together.

When we do see each other, it is under less than happy circumstances. I pretend to be indifferent. You act as if you don’t care. Maybe you really don’t care. I can understand that. I have made myself believe, I am nothing more than an acquaintance. Perhaps this will help me get over you.

And finally allow me to sleep at night.

Yet, I am not let off.

Even when I sleep, I do not rest. You visit me in my dreams. Taunting me. Hanging a carrot just out of my reach. They are sweet dreams, and that is why I hope they go away. They portray something that will never come true, and I am hurting because of them.

I have fallen. I am broken. You are so close; yet so far that I can only hope. I yearn for interaction. Yet, unfortunately, that is all I can, and will ever, achieve.

You have locked yourself..and I am not the key.

All I can do is watch from a distance. Never crossing paths, but always there. Even if not in body, in soul.

I am at a dilemma. I cannot proceed any further. I want to. Really I do. I want to be your something more. Alas. My childish fanciful hopes are like rocks in the ocean. Hidden. Cold. And never to be known by you.

What is the point then, in continuing to breath? I am losing sight of my reason for doing so.

A power exists in this world that is to kill for, or if not, to die for…

Comments...anyone...?

aria

2008-04-12T14:05:00.000+08:00

Grabbing every opportunity I can get, here I am with another meaningless post.

Haha.

I am wondering why the accounts department always have to stay so late. The office is left with only a few of us, all from the accounts side...lol. Which is so sian la.

Bloody last min work!!

At least I think I shld be able to reach 1k in my latest 15 days =)

Another thing, I am not granted a moment's reprieve even in my sleep. I am haunted by dreams unwelcomed.

Sad case.

How am I supposed to get over this if I see you even with my eyes closed?? I wonder.

Gosh. Im gonna become so stressed my hair'll start falling out soon.

invitation to get lost

2008-04-10T14:53:00.000+08:00

What do I really want?
You, at the back of my mind, pls leave. Lol. Leave!!!

Hmm. Its useless to think things, but do nothing abt them.

I do not want to enter uni as a fat pig.
So I am doing something abt it.

Haha...

I'll be so busy like this though...hmm.

^.-

2008-04-07T03:15:00.000+08:00

Ok, you guys may have seen this titbit of information somewhere else before, but I feel this is quite interesting.

64% of NUS students have sex at least once a week on campus.

That is what is reported, according to a STOMP survey.
Wow.
Lets make things simple.
Assuming the survey is an accurate representation of all the students in NUS, and without factoring any external influences, that would mean 2 out of every 3 students you see in NUS engage in sex fairly often.

That is excluding the fact that there is still part of the remaining 36% who have sex on a less regular basis who are not included in the above category.

It just goes to show how the trend is going these days. Pre-marital sex is no longer, ok maybe not no longer, but is rarely abstained from in this day and age, no matter what you choose to think.

I was just telling my mom, "That means 64% chance I'll fall into that category as well huh? Haha."

-.-''

Of cos, she came to me with all the sleep-inducing lectures about concentrating on my studies first blah blah...=\

Haha. Really makes you see things differently eh?

Act 1 - End

2008-04-06T10:00:00.000+08:00

The weather changes so quickly, so erratically.

All of a sudden, the sky turns dark, and there is a heavy downpour, which I nearly got caught in, if I had been 5 mins slower.

Come to think of it, the last time I remembered experiencing such weather was slightly less than 5 mths ago.
It was a day highly anticipated.
It'd have been perfect if it wasnt raining so heavily.
Though the weather was cold, and the day seemed depressing, I thoroughly enjoyed myself.
And that is what I want to choose to remember.
As a memory worth keeping.

Now is a different story.
Fairytales have a happy ending.
This is not a fairytale, and this play has ended.

We fail from time to time, but it is because of these failures that we become stronger. I have learnt what I needed to know. This will not happen again.

The present is what we live in, the past is worth thinking back on, however, it is the future that we can mould, and should look forward to.

The weather changes so quickly, so erratically.
I am caught in the middle.
I will get out.

to be. not. no regrets?

2008-04-03T12:30:00.000+08:00

Fell sick yest.
Went to see doc straight after work.
Had lots of sleep.
Now feeling much much better. =)

Met James in the afternoon. (yea, i skipped work cos i was sick, but i still met him...?)
Why oh why Mr. James are you so freaking shy??
Haha.
Din even dare take a look.
-.-''
Wasted my effort of walking back to Heartland mall with you in my drug-induced drowsy state..and u haven paid me for the bus ride >=\

Practised a little on the electone, just playing whatever was coming to my mind...
Stopped after only 30 mins cos I was on medication and just felt too sleepy...
Ended up lazing on the sofa playing PSP (like wth..)

I guess its really true that you'll start feeling better after telling a friend ur problem(s).
I seem to be less...emotional these few days. (i think)
Considering I still do think about that particular thing, I am in better control of myself =)
At least I dun feel that super sudden depressing feeling that makes me break down. (actually I haven felt that in years, but who's counting? )

So after all is said and done, when I have done what I could, can I face myself and say that I have no regrets that I have tried?

a lucky find

2008-04-01T13:45:00.000+08:00

Oh gosh.
My friend and I stumbled onto a shop in lavender that sells dirt-cheap shirts.
Couldnt believe our eyes.
5 bux for 2.
And its not that kind of cheapo low-quality piece of shit material kind of clothes.
Considering its 5 dollars for 2, its a very reasonable steal.
I guess the grp of us will be frequenting there quite often from now on...haha.
And i'll see a sudden increase in my wardrobe of shirts =)

Really so fortunate!

another engine

2008-03-31T13:33:00.000+08:00

Alright.
Fingers crossed.
Hopefully I made the right choice.
Anw its too late alrdy.
Submitted my application form + paid the fee.

Busy day tmr.

Can you believe I did nothing productive at all today.
A brain-impaired simian...
...and a wastage of human space.
Haha. Really slacked all the way...

Haven had much energy these few days.
Feel drained.
As though no motivation to do anything.
Or more specifically, to do anything different.

I am like a fish without fins (and brains) in a river.
No mind of my own. Just going with the flow.
Haha. =\
Thinking that the mouth of a shark is an amusement park.
Yea, i know wad ur thinking, sharks again -.-
So sue me.

reservist?

2008-03-26T14:00:00.000+08:00

Most of my peers ard me are getting called up for reservist alrdy. That is so fast.
Even those who are going to study in uni and it takes place during their studies.. ~.~
Perhaps its because I ORD'ed 1 mth later than the rest, tt's y I have not been called up yet. Lucky? Haha. Not even a single trace of call-up at www.ns.sg.
Personally I wouldnt mind going back to lck2 during this period of time, as long as my uni does not start yet...it'll be refreshing to see everyone again...haha. =)

Note to self: Submit proof of admission to NUS to Alice/Alicia/A-something (dam i cant rmb the clerk's name) within this week.
Otherwise. I'll be in the same boat as them.
A sinking one.
Like the one in the titanic where ppl try to escape but get eaten by sharks.

motivation

2008-03-22T14:33:00.000+08:00

Whenever I talk to others about planning for the future...okay maybe not 'the' future, but at least wad I am gonna do with my life, I'll always end up feeling very motivated to achieve something...
...for about a day.

When I wake up the next day, the enthusiasm's gone... =\

Like it never happened. Haha.

throw away the key

2008-03-17T12:08:00.000+08:00

I need to forget certain things.
Lock up certain feelings.
Easier said than done.
At times, a push is needed.
I think I might have stumbled onto that push.
Although...its pulling rather than pushing.
Ahahahaha...
I might be going crazy. Haha.
Its getting easier to do so as the days go by though.

If a haggard-looking elderly person comes up to you and asks you for a dollar for a bus ride, would you give it?
Would you have second thoughts?

How about if its a perfectly able-bodied youth asking you the same thing?

grr..

2008-03-13T13:17:00.000+08:00

Don't you just hate it when someone who has just finished consuming a long thin tobacco-filled bundle of tar greatness waddles into a bus and sits down so close to you carrying a stench that is enough to wake the dead?

It doesn help if the sufferer (me) is suffering from a constant cough (i wonder who to blame for that?) and this blissfully inconsiderate commuter acts like his BO is an aromatherapy bottle of lavender flowers.

It gets my blood boiling so much so that I have visions of torturing that said commuter and feeding it to a giant murderous cigarette-shaped dog.

'nuff said.

?

2008-03-12T13:40:00.000+08:00

The interesting thing about life is that you get to meet so many different people.
People whose presence are gladly welcomed.
People who can bring a smile to you.
People who are there for you.
People who'll stick a knife into ur back...and...
People who are irritating.

Which do you belong to?

bad

2008-03-10T12:41:00.000+08:00

My back is injured...somehow.
Its painful to move ard...zzz.
This is putting me in a v unpleasant mood.
Nearly flared up at my mom cos of some trivial matter.
Nearly.
Lucky I didnt.
Or I'll be in an even worse mood.

evisceration

2008-03-08T16:20:00.000+08:00

Some things are worth my time more than others.

I have been feeling moody this week.
Even now.
Though I told myself to be carefree.

Workload is just piling up at the office. Its getting unbearable for the 3 of us. However we still have to do.
Its a matter of principles.

I think I wasted my time and money watching 'Meet the spartans'.
Firstly, we were abt 15mins late into the show.
Secondly, some jokes were dry IMO.
Thirdly, the way Leonidas died was super lame.
Strangely, for the 1st time, I was not checked for my IC for an NC 16 show.

On the brighter side of things, I have not fallen sick yet. =)

sick

2008-03-04T14:38:00.000+08:00

I think I am going to fall sick.

Yesterday was coughing so much at 1 pt of the day. Though I think its cos I choked on something...or isit? Haha. (Self deceit?)

Today also walking home in the rain...

PLUS.
Somebody kept coughing and coughing so close to me a few days ago.
Still drink ice lemon tea. Haha.
If your germs really ban1 jia1 ah...=\

Yea. Also watching movie with my fren this wed. But I think my memory is really bad. Or I am just really tired.
I cant rmb wad movie we're gonna watch.
Ultimate man.
ZzZ -.-

dam ex

2008-03-01T14:48:00.000+08:00

Come to think of it, the next time I get to see this particular day in the year, I'll be 24. Omg. Haha.

It was a good choice that I went to extract my wisdom tooth during my NS period. Other than being FOC of course, haha, the dentist (2 of them actually) found a slight decay at the adjacent tooth after 1 of my wisdom tooth was removed.

Today was the appt that was supposed to settle this issue.

"I can't see or feel anything..."
-.-
That was what the dentist said today.
The gist of it was, he said that though my X-ray had indicated a 'cause for complaint', he could not find the decayed spot anywhere today. He was poking around everywhere around that tooth and could not find anything. Lol. He was even digging around my gums.
Strange. I did not feel much (no pain), but there were several bloodied cotton balls...=\

Anyway he put some cream, called Flouride something (ok so my memory's poor..zzz), which is supposed to reveal it if there really is a decay. Otherwise nothing'll happen.
It tastes like banana =)
Lol. He wasnt kidding when he said that.

So now there's another appt to see him again in 3 mths...

A 15 mins checkup.

$50.30.

WTH.

credit

2008-02-25T15:07:00.000+08:00

Thanks to a great fren, who actually took the effort to help me search for skins,
I managed to spare a few joules of energy to make some changes. Thanks many.

Though I was slightly slow.

rat

2008-02-18T07:47:00.000+08:00

Look at what turned up today...

Sorry but it was difficult getting a clear shot...you can click on them for an enlarged version though.

It had eaten through several packets of instant noodle alrdy...haha.
Finally caught it today.

Cute right. Haha, but not when its trying to jump at you...=\

My dad, being the ever kind soul, went to release it quite a distance from my home.
Its the year of the rat anyway! Haha.
And we didnt even ask it to pay us back.

old

2008-02-16T14:51:00.000+08:00

So tired these days..
Sleep 8 hrs also not enough.
Growing old alrdy la! Haha.

Sometimes concerning certain things, in the case where I cant decide for myself, I always leave it up to chance.
I'm guilty of doing that again.

Omg and did you know Capybaras are dam cute.
Haha.

cny

2008-02-07T15:57:00.000+08:00

Happy chinese new year everyone!

=)

2008-02-03T15:49:00.000+08:00

Make that another month more.
Haha. Keep extending. Not that Im complaining...

Mom actually broke her footware on her way out today. -.-''
Me, being the kind soul that I am, rushed to deliver a new pair to her a few blocks away from my home. Haha.

Quite amusing...
and today I know the layout of Bishan at least a little better. =)

unflinching

2008-01-28T10:43:00.000+08:00

Sigh..

Sometimes I wonder, you'd think you know a person, but the said person surprises u once again when tt person either does something uncalled for, or the absence of doing anything at all when the situation calls. Whichever way...
What I am trying to say is, I get so frustrated when the people who are closer to me do not have an opinion of their own. Following what others say, passively, unflinchingly, stubbornly.

Hai.

On another happier note, I am currently still employed. What was supposed to be a week long temp job has lasted even till next week, making it past 3 wks alrdy. =)
No more rotting at home at least for another week. Haha, but very busy, and on the weekdays, barely any time to relax.

Report to work at 9 am in the mornings, and the earliest I've left so far is 6 30 pm; latest 11 pm (1 of my colleagues actually said 11 pm was considered early alrdy -.-'').
Though of cos, the timing's flexible i.e. i can actually leave when I want, but heck, if can earn more $$, why not? Lol.

Ah btw, CNY is coming! =)
Nice.

confusion

2008-01-09T10:55:00.000+08:00

Once again, I am at a crossroads in my life.
Once again, I am confused.
Down the beaten path, or the other way?

hny

2008-01-01T16:10:00.000+08:00

HAppy New YEar!

Must tell myself, 2008 will be a better year.
Haha. =)

me

2008-01-01T15:00:00.000+08:00

I think to myself,"What am I doing in front of the comp during the eve of the new year...?"

No life. Zzz.
=P

perspective

2007-12-30T05:21:00.000+08:00

Perspective is so important. It really changes the way you feel about things.
Once I got that into my head, not many things seem so depressing, so aimless, anymore.
I am clearer on what I want, and what is just...illusionary.

These days so boring~~!!
Nthn much to do =/
Suggestions anyone? (besides a job)

national treasure

2007-12-22T06:00:00.000+08:00

Met up with Y K Ng (Yong Kuan), K W Tan (Warren) and G A Leow (Guo An) at AMK Hub for a movie yesterday.
Stopped by Warren's house before heading there. He wanted to show me the PS3 he just bought. Wow. OKay. At first I thought the graphics looked a bit choppy, until he explained that he hadn bought the HD-something add-on to improve the graphics. Spent $700 on the set...I wonder if it was worth it. Personally, I wouldn go for it just yet...haha, especially since I just spent $400 on a PSP slim. =X
Well, due to his 'display' aka showing off of his PS3, we ended up leaving his house at 6pm, when he actually told all of us to meet at 6pm. So we had less than a minute to reach AMK Hub from Hougang.
Conclusion? LATE. Lol.
Furthermore, you can imagine how difficult it is to find a parking spot in AMK Hub during a public holiday. Yep. When we finally reached there, it was alrdy 6.45pm...and we werent the latest. -.- Courtesy of G A Leow. As usual.
Funny thing; Warren msged me the day before asking to go watch 'I am Legend'. Tried as I could, I just couldn find any movie listing for that movie in the cinemas. Then I found out why. Printed big and bold in the newspaper for 'I am Legend', "OPENS 24th DECEMBER". =/
In the end, we bought tickets to 'National Treasure'...at 9.30pm. Dam late.

"Let's stay away from fast food."
That was our common thought. We walked around the place, even to AMK central but couldn decide on a place. Eventually, we ended up at KFC for dinner. Somehow. Somewhat. ZzZ.

The 'National Treasure' show was worth a watch. Sort of a investigative, Da Vinci Code-ish type of show, minus the religious implications, coupled with action, comedy and a little romance. Slightly more than 2hrs long. I thought I sensed a small cliffhanger at the end of the show, but there didnt seem to be a follow-up on that, so maybe I was just imagining it...

Ended past midnight. Nearly lost my handphone there. It dropped out, and with the use of my friends' handphones, found mine stuck deep inside one of the seats. Dunno how it could've dropped until like that. -.-
Oh ya. 3 of us had the same handphone. Haha. How coincidental.
So very late already. No more last bus or train. Luckily I brought a ride there. Haha, and I didnt have to wake up early the next morning. So it didnt really matter, for me that is. The rest of them still had work today. So good luck to them. =D
We were saying we'd meet up again to watch 'I am Legend'. For real this time. HAha. It was nice to see all of them again.

Woke up only about 2 hrs ago. RECORD in dunno how many years. Wow, I must have been real tired the night before...

Anyway, congrats (I think) to JAmes on being posted to be a regimental policeman (RP). It is one of the better aka less intense vocations to get posted to. Though its super boring. =/ But hey, since when is guard duty ever interesting?

a new beginning

2007-12-19T14:50:00.000+08:00

Hey guys.
Just changed a new blogskin...grr...you wont believe how much trouble changing to this and getting it right has caused me..haha. About a few frustrating hours >.<

Finally decided to change this. This is in tandem with me starting a new chapter of my life. No more regrets. No more hesitation.

Thanks to my friend the saboh king, I am down with the cold.
Therefore I was staying at home the whole day...wow.
This is actually the first day I didnt go out since 7th dec...

Well, apart from a few hours straight of playing a certain MMORPG on the comp (felt so sick after that), I decided to try to get back whatever skills I had for the electone organ. =P
Basically I did a little of everything; sight playing, chords progression, improvisation, composition etc.
3 straight hours.
After having not played for so many months, it was quite refreshing actually, though of course, mentally and physically (hands) tiring.
Its a small price to pay if I ever want to get back in shape for my lvl 5 exam. >=)

Another thing. Dare i say it? What I feared is actually coming true.
Now that I have completed my NSF term, I am actually having too much free time and not knowing what to do with it.
I had initially thought I could devote this time to something special.
Now I am just so unsure.

cold

2007-12-18T13:36:00.000+08:00

Im filled with so many uncertainties nowadays.
Uncertainties with choice...mainly.
This or that? Yes or no?
A good choice is always the hardest to make...they say.
I think I should finish what I started, at least.

Cold.
In so many sense, I have been bombarded by this word.
The temperature.
The sickness.
The attitude.

OppOrtUnIty

2007-12-12T15:52:00.000+08:00

As they say, opportunities come and go, its up to the individual to make the most of it.

An opportunity have just been thrusted onto me. Should I embrace it, or not?

End

2007-12-08T14:31:00.000+08:00

Well, today was the day. I am no longer an NSF.
Went to NDC this morning to remove stitches, along with extraction of teeth...
I went back to camp with a hole in my mouth.
Cannot talk properly.
Cannot eat properly.
And I couldn even enjoy myself today.
Now this is what I call a memorable ORD date.
(",)

prOmIsE

2007-12-06T15:15:00.000+08:00

There is a certain...how should i say...resolution that I have to adhere to.
Its something that I set my mind on NOT doing during my NS term.
So far, everything's fine.
But thing's have been happening.

I am just glad I am going to end my NS liability.
I dunno how much more of this i can take.
And I'm glad I didnt let myself down.

tEA

2007-11-29T14:37:00.000+08:00

I went out carrying a bag.
I came back carrying a teabag.

Bags and bubble tea just dont mix.